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You say anarchy, I say government you say temporary, I say permanent You say disillusionment, I say wonder You say talented, I say neverhundred.

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personal shit

Posted by NeverHundred - June 24th, 2010


I try to avoid writing about personal shit here. Because it always turns out badly, I start whining and bitching about life. And no one wants to hear that, I don't really write about that.

So now what am I suppose to say. I've already shared my philosophy numerous times. I've already explained my various point of view and it's very simple. I'm a nihilist. Not anything to add to that. I can't think of one damn witty thing to say. Noithing seems to invoke creativity and it's getting more and more difficult to impress me. I used to be so easily impressed but now I just don't feel inspired. Imagine if I went deeper into my psyche, imagine if every day I wrote another blog about the daily grind in the life of a person who has no ambition, who does absolutely nothing exciting and who has all but given up on life.

That's why I deleted all my posts before, they were turning into that and the old posts all looked like shit. It was turning into my first blog. Terrible stuff...

it's pure madness today, it feels like I'm trapped in a barrel full of monkeys, it's not as fun as it sounds.


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Just find the gun before the monkeys do.

If they find it first...

Yea... Noone likes being in a barrel of monkeys... Smells like crap in there. Im serious. And just live life as you want... Dont care what other people might think. And if you dont like what you write about just dont write it then.

I don't like were this philosophy leads. No I am destined to live a life of suffering, disappointment and disillusionment. But I'm okay with that. I don't care what other people think, i only care what I think, and I am my own worst critic. I never like anything I do. No matter what I do it's never good enough for me. There's no way live up to my standards.

If i write anything i will hate it. If i don't write anything than I will hate myself for not writing anything. No matter what I do it only leads to disapproval. There's no arguing with myself. I just wont listen to anything I have to say about it.

I sort of understand what you mean. Lately it seems nothing has any taste, everything is bland.

I play a video game; bland.
I eat food; bland.
I watch a movie; bland.

I guess that's just a step in life, some sort of phase. You just gotta carry on, whatever the result is. You're not hurting anyone, so just do as you wish, give less of a fuck.

I try so hard not to give a fuck. Apathy is supposed to be my thing... but like everything else I'm supposed to be good at I'm terrible at it.

I sometimes wonder if you're a government agent, watching me, because you often describe my life in your posts and comments.

But then I realize that that's crazy, and it's far more likely that you're and alien.

Yes. Because aliens can read your mind. Even when you wear the tin foil hat... if I was a government agent the tinfoil hat would disrupt my mind reading machine. I would be... foiled... by it.

Lets swap lives

You wish to trade lies?