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Posted by NeverHundred - September 26th, 2010


My brother was found dead. Gunshot wound. Was just told that he was dead and that it was a gunshot, We don't even know if it was self inflicted or not. I feel bad because that is certainly a possibility. He had so much more to live for than me, He was smarter, more charismatic, wittier. The evidence seems to be very much toward suicide. I just can't believe it. He was twenty years old. He could have done anything. I just heard about this a half hour ago. I didn't cry until I wrote a message on his wall on facebook. I just sort of had to say goodbye.

Andrew Bird was my brother's favorite musician.

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It was basically confirmed that it was suicide. The reason is likely to do with a girl. He shot himself in the heart. I still don't understand.

I made a facebook post and there was such a tremendous response from all his friends. I don't have many friends on there... but he does. He had a lot of friends in general. He was well liked, and every one of them, like myself, they leave posts along the lines of "RIP Jake", but also... they can't imagine how this could have happened. Jake was an optimistic person, he was positive and idealistic. He believed life was worth living, that's the impression I and everyone else got.

And here is the spiffy man now.

Brother


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what the fuck thats awful i feel bad for you man

I'm getting to the point were the intial shock is wearing off and I'm waiting for someone to tell me this is all a joke, or that this is a dream I'm about to wake up from.

I have no idea what to say. That is terrible news.

I remember that night when you left AIM on or something and your brother was around, and I said something to you and he responded. It wasn't much, we just made awkward back and forth jokes until he signed off. I have no idea if it was actually him or not, though, but that's what he said.

I wish I had more to say here, something cheery or helpful, but I'm useless in that aspect.

Sorry.

Yeah, I have trouble finding the words myself. I don't know what to say to my mom or dad or sister about it.

that's sad man. i'm sorry to hear that. RIP and condolences and everything. good luck bro.

Right now we're talking about the logistics. where the body is going to be buried. In Duxbury Massachusetts or here in Maine. How this is going to go down, where and when, who's going to be there. I expect it's there will be a lot of friends and family who show up.

Oh my god, Eric. I'm so so so sorry to hear about your loss. I couldn't imagine what I'd do if my brother did anything like that. I wish your family all the best and please, if you need me to make a dork of myself on mic again to cheer you up, I will.

It's alright. I actually have found a lot of friends, of mine and of my brother. They're all really supportive.

I asked why he did it, and got an answer that I don't think I like. Not that any answer would have been acceptable. But he was online and he was talking with someone and he said "I just tried to shoot myself. The gun misfired, I'm invincible." Well apparently it didn't misfire the second time he tried to fire it.

There was more to it than that. i mean he felt bad about some things. But his reasons are fairly nonsensical to me. He thought he was a sociopath who cared too much. And that was a bad thing.

feeling better yet?

not yet. I think it'll take a week.