Talked to a person using "video" chat for the first time. That was interesting... maybe, sort of. Except the part where I suck at talking to people in face to face reality and I guess that transmutes over to video chat too. Also they went into it expecting I was going to be some sort of super genius apparently. I'm not... I'm only three points above average intelligence. Not exactly Mensa material.
It's nearly Dead Bird on the Table Day, everything is closed. It's snowed, I shoveled the snow despite the heat. I did so without a shirt on because it was boiling out. No joke, probably could have let it melt... but it was hanging on like Jack Stickman Frost had reinforced it with super powers of insolvablilty... just like the puzzles he puts up on his profile.
Have I been working on music? Yes. Do I feel the music I've created is up to par? No. So I don't think we'll see much in the way of music uploads for a while. I'm truly sorry for this. And I know people are sick of my posts about relationship drama and the confusion and frustration with this thing I believe to be love.
So I'll say one more thing about it. I went and met the girl last week. I was awkward, nervous and although she didn't seem to mind too much I'm afraid I may not have left the best impression. But she seemed to agree to meet this weekend. But we only really talked about it on Friday and Saturday and I haven't heard from her since. I'm sure she's just busy with her inlaws and the holiday and all sorts of other things... but I'm slightly worried is all. Alright, I'll just push those thoughts out of my mind though. She said she'd meet me outside the Shere Punjab restaurant at some point on Saturday and she hasn't said that she's changed her mind.
I just wish I knew the exact time she's planning on being there. We never really got to that part. I'm not ready to send her a message just yet about that though. Maybe on Friday I will, or later tomorrow night I'll try and catch her online. Although, she hasn't been on in a while.
She's not the only girl I have on my mind... although don't get me wrong my worry about this other girl is for completely different reasons. She's nothing more than a friend, though she was always one of the good ones. I'm worried about her though, I'm usually a little worried about her but I get the feeling I should be more worried about her right now. I got some bad vibes man... she also hasn't been online in a while. But it's Thanksgiving weekend lot's of people are busy. And I'm rarely on later than eight when most people find themselves online. I've just been a little on edge about people lately I guess. in my life too many people have left, and too many people have died for me to feel safe.