So last weekend went like this. A friend cut me out of my life, and my heart filled with joy. A girl said she loved me and I cried, I felt terribly depressed. Were the fuck do I begin? Well, those two events were sort of related. Than there was another huge thing that happened in between those two events. I'm twenty-four, I should have the fairer sex figured out by now. But I only got kissed for the first time this weekend. And it wasn't by the girl who I had a falling out with, or the one who told me she loved me. No, it was someone else entirely. I like her, and there was a connection, but still... I just know it's going to fall a part. I mean it doesn't help that another girl who I've known for years suddenly chose the very next day to tell me that they love me. Now I'm stuck in the middle, the girl who I just met but I actually have some sort of chemistry with and the girl who has been there for so long and I feel like I owe her so much. But what about the other girl, the one I neither had chemistry with and all the history we shared was a toxic mess... well, she was leaving for a city real close to where the girl I've known for years lived. She was my ticket to meet the girl I've always wanted to see in real life. But since she's gone than that dreams gone with her.

So all I've got is a shot with a girl I just barely know, who... despite hitting it off with, I might not be able to sustain this relationship. I feel guilty because months ago I promised the girl who lives far away, but has been close to my heart for years that I'd go out and see her... and I can't. And so I meet someone new, and I feel like I might have actually found something great... but it's ruined by three words written by someone else, "I love you" would you believe I cried? Yeah, well... I cry every once in a while. It happens, and it happened when I read those words. Because I never thought it would work with the girl who lived across the country, I care about her but it's too big a risk. And now I might break her heart and I don't want that.

...And I don't even know what I have with this new girl will last. We kissed, big deal... we talked and we were on the same wavelength, it's amazing... but I've fallen in love like this before, and it doesn't end well. I'm too clingy and insecure... at the same time, when my ego is wounded and I feel like my pride is in danger, suddenly I become confused. I get into this pull push mode that makes me out to be erratic and unstable. And then just like that, I've scared another girl off... but by the time it's over, I don't even care anymore. I guess that's what's great about the girl I've known for years, even though I've never met her. She knows how crazy I am, but she still puts up with me. Maybe she wouldn't be so forgiving if I lived near-by, maybe it's for the best that I keep my distance. But I really don't what the best thing to do is...

Here's an unrelated video... Or is it?

Oh shit, this new wave band did a cover of David Bowie's Suffragette City? I've done a lot of reviews of what happens when nineties nu-metal bands cover new wave songs, but what happens when I do a comparison of a new wave band covering a David Bowie song... looks like in a week or so we might find out.